2013-10-30 - Through the Trees
So what do you want to do today?(Says hubby) Well, I think Id like to go for a drive up on the parkway. Havent been there for awhile (I say). This discussion took place at about the middle of my birthday. Never mind which one. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I didnt expect anything out of the ordinary, though. Im not sure why.
Part of the reason my expectations were ordinary was likely due to how I was feeling. For quite some time, migraines have plagued my days, and at times destroyed wonderful moments - although I do try to rise above them. Fact of the matter is, I do fairly well in groups with activities going on, and then when its time to rest, it can be an overwhelming challenge. There are periods of time they are barely noticeable, and then others are like one extremely long day. Ive never determined a specific trigger, but only get a sense of one coming, and for the entire day of my birthday, I knew it was likely coming. And after lunch, it came just before going up to the parkway.
It has been quite some time since I had been up on the parkway, and I was looking forward to the beauty of the autumn leaves, despite any interference from my head. Then there was the wind and the cooler temperatures following several rather warm days. The higher elevation forests had already lost more of their leaves, yet there were still some strong colors and variety of shapes and heights of trees, so it was worth the drive, indeed. It wasnt more than maybe an hour-and-a-half total, yet in the trip up and then down, there was an unexpected surprise that came in the middle, and beyond the beauty of it, I didnt really understand the significance of it. Since then, after pondering, it had taken on a more deep meaning to me through the headaches and the other challenges in the last couple of years. There was something about the angle of the sun going down - and how it was hitting the trees and creating irradiance in the midst of a forest beginning to become engulfed in darkness - that was somehow beautiful to me. I literally could not take my eyes off it, as we began our descent down the mountain into the valley. It didnt even matter to me that my head was pounding in those moments, and in fact I dont recall noticing it at that point. We like to think of healing as total removal of things that hurt us, yet it seems sometimes that just having healing moments while in the midst of the circumstance, gives us a more in-depth perspective that we might not have known otherwise.
There is something beautiful about knowing light can invade places that are almost always known as ones of darkness. And when the sun is bent on permeating the trees, there is nothing that can be done to stop it. So this being the weekend after that nature encounter, I was faced with another migraine. In that week since going, it occurs to me that God is trying to tell me something, and how I best receive information is often through the natural around me. No matter how dark it gets, no matter how cold it seems in the midst of this unpleasantness, the sun still reaches me. The beauty of it, for me, is that unlike the forest, I can choose to receive the light, even if I need to be in a dark room for a while.
We also have the prophetic message as something completely reliable, and you will do well to pay attention to it, as to a light shining in a dark place, until the day dawns, and the morning star rises in your hearts. (2 Peter 1:19 NIV)