2009-02-16 - What Is a Person to Do?
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. (Romans 7:15 NIV)
I don't understand myself at all, for I really want to do what is right, but I can't. I know perfectly well that what I am doing is wrong, and my bad conscience proves that I agree with these laws I am breaking. Nevertheless, I can't help myself, because I am no longer the one in charge. It is the sin inside me that is stronger than I am.
As far as my old sinful nature is concerned, I am rotten through and through. No matter which way I turn, I can't make myself do right. I want to, but I cannot. When I want to do good, I do not, and when I try not to do anything wrong, I do it anyway. Now if I am doing what I do not want to do, it is plain where the trouble is: sin still has a grasp on me.
There is only one solution: God. I have to talk to Him, seek His counsel, and see what must be done. How glorious it will be when I can live in freedom, really knowing God has set me free. Not just saying the words but living them, having them be an extension of who I am.
Lord, You tell me I no longer have to live this way. What is to break this cycle? You can, God. You can make my life free, freer. Free of gimmicks, lies, and disorders. You are a source of love and forgiveness. Nothing I value on Earth can compare to Your brilliance. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
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