[CF Devotionals] 2019-11-06 - The Real Story

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Have you ever had a relationship that you imagined could be better? Then at some point, you are faced with the worst possible scenario which could leave you unable to clear the air and make amends with one another? About eleven years ago, I faced such a scenario and was waiting in a holding pattern during the coma. After nearly three months of unconsciousness, mostly for medically induced reasons, the waiting seemed to be coming to an end with an amazing miracle followed by the many emotions of everyone involved - then leading to the road of full recovery. The patient was overwhelmed, relieved, grateful, and began to redefine his purpose for remaining in life’s footrace, as he began rehabilitation to learn to walk again, among other things. Family and friends reconnected, sharing their gratitude for the second chance given - the true miracle. My father’s own words were something like “God’s given me another chance, and I want to find out what his plan for me is. I think it starts with God first, wife, and family - not just work, now.” Life continued with a new thankfulness, starting with celebrating Thanksgiving that year. Before long, things went right back to a slightly altered version of how it had been before tragedy struck. I was then left with a replay in my head of the song titled: I am waiting. That song was re-released by Lindsay Buckingham a couple years (2006) before the medically-induced coma due to an unverified illness contracted abroad on one of a few overseas business trips just before retirement. (I later learned the song was written by Mick Jagger and Keith Richards of the Rolling Stones, originally released in 1966, coincidentally my birth year). The sense of the song is a state of a dream-like limbo, while awaiting someone’s arrival. At the time, I so strongly connected to its lyrics that I believed I would likely never be able to speak to my father again. Some of why was to do with the illness; the other piece was distance already existing before he fell ill. Just a couple of years after his full recovery, all those reasons were again finding their way back into their usual places. Over ten years after recovery, there is deafening silence - continuous - instead of the normal intermittent laced with the occasional calls, voice messages back and forth, and sporadic notes in the mail. Rather than the sadness I felt then for what happened, possibly leaving us with no chance of a better relationship, is now the realization that the shallow blood ties we had was all there ever was. That’s the real story. I studied God’s word, just as I had before and during his sickness, prayed, did all I knew how from the point of view of heavenly guidance and still failed. Truly searching for what human frailties I should overcome with my pride swallowed to no avail. God did show, though, that it is not just about one side of things - but both. And an impasse can come in many forms. We can lack understanding, be blinded from truth or even have a physical malady that hinders us receiving a message from someone in the manner of its intention. Unfortunately, it is not always just physical circumstances that hold people back from achieving meaningful connections. Sometimes, a physical trauma does break down barriers, and people realize that their choices and priorities have played a large part in how they connect to those they claim matter to them. Other times, however, it does not have a lasting effect.

Conversely, when I was introduced to my Father in Heaven, there was no more waiting, no more looking back or constantly second-guessing myself. After letting go and repenting of my own mistakes and lack of good judgement, there was no more need for apologizing for my own feelings, no more being rejected for who I am or how I was knit together and being left alone. I still find myself wondering why - with my earthly father - yet still know that God’s plan is perfect, even when I do not understand everything. God has shown me what unconditional love looks like and directs where I am to turn my attention, in order to better understand His will. And as much as we can use what we learn to be in His will as we wade through many of this life’s challenging relationships, we cannot make others understand it. All we can do is our best, while trying to be a light in the darkness. God shows people things when He is invited into our hearts, and in His timing, he reveals to us what we are ready to learn. Sometimes the key for us now is not to allow what we wish for to tempt us to go back to the darkness where we started. Move forward, shine the light, get along as much as is possible, plant seeds that lead to truth - and trust God. Sometimes relationships are healed on this journey, and other times it is not the real story here. But it can be the real story later. And we are all part of God’s story, which is the greatest one of all. Just do the next right thing, even when it hurts.

“Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” (Romans 12:1-2 NIV)

“Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with the Lord’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality. Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited. “do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord. On the contrary: “If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.” Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.” Romans 12:9-21 NIV)

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All scripture references from King James Version (KJV) unless otherwise noted

All scripture references from King James Version (KJV) unless otherwise noted

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