2015-01-14 - Skating Fearlessly
Just before I was in Junior High School, I had gotten a new pair of skates that went over tennis shoes. After just a few minor adjustments, to size them to fit my shoes properly, I was off and making circles on our new concrete driveway. The area in the carport was smoothed just like the basement in the house, which I first learned before we moved from Penn Hills, PA to Jacksonville, NC. Although the carport was different, it was the perfect surface for roller skating, just as you might find in a rink. I remember spending hours outside, in the carport and on the more roughly-finished concrete driveway, making laps. Forward, backwards, any combination thereof - even onto the sidewalk, as we were a corner lot with sidewalk surrounding three-quarters of the property. I would very rarely fall, and never thought about it as a possibility, while in the process of making those laps. Of course, I fell when first learning, and took precautions to protect myself from serious injury until I was better at balancing and maneuvering on wheels. Even knowing it was always possible I could lose my balance, I did it anyway, without fear.
As an adult, I have continued to try and face every situation that might be a challenge, with the same lack of fear. I have sometimes done so with success and sometimes, not so much. About five years after getting those skates, it occurred to me that I needed more than my own courage to face life's most fearful moments. My Father in heaven is the true source of strength needed to skate unafraid into what life throws at us. Dictionary.com defines courage as “n. the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery. “ I tend to disagree with the part “without fear”. People can act bravely while feeling fear. I did, each time I got up and kept skating after falling. No fear at all implies to me not having any concern or need for self-preservation or then healing. Funk and Wagonalls.com defines courage this way: “n. Intrepidity, calmness, and firmness in the face of danger; bravery.”
I think that is a bit more accurate, with there being no absence of fear, but rather firmness in the face of the danger. For me, the firmness follows the strength given by the Creator, strength which holds me up in the midst of any fear. He provides me strength to endure and push through whatever I face in my life. Whether it's the possibility of bruising some part of me when skating, or my heart breaking with losses faced that seemed unimaginable, when I first decided to try floating on wheels without a pillow to protect me. Now I have the source to heal my bruises and broken heart. It doesn't mean I will never be afraid again. It just means I know the ending down the road, and I know who's got my back.
“The Lord God is my strength, and he will make my feet like hinds' feet, and he will make me to walk upon mine high places. To the chief singer on my stringed instruments.” (Habakkuk 3:19)
All scripture references are from the King James Version (KJV) unless otherwise noted.