2014-08-18 - What Would Hagar Say?
The angel of the LORD also said to her: "You are now with child and you will have a son. You shall name him Ishmael, for the LORD has heard of your misery." (Genesis 16:11 NIV)
I was not a mother by choice, but by request. Sarai, my employer, wanted me to be a surrogate mom for her and husband Abram--an acceptable practice in our culture. I presumed Sarai knew what she was doing. It would have been wrong to question her. Sarai began taking her feelings and failures out on me.
When I couldn't take it anymore, I ran away to the woods by a spring. It was the majesty and peace that I needed. Then an angel found me, and asked where I was going. I did not have a plan mapped out; I just needed to get away from Sarai's overwhelming presence. The angel told me to return to Sarai and submit to her authority, which I did.
The angel also told me that I would have a son and name him Ishmael, and he would have many descendants, but would be a wild son. Although things were stacked against Ishmael, God vowed to bless him. I will make him fruitful and will greatly increase his numbers. He will be the father of twelve rulers, and I will make him into a great nation. (Genesis 17:20) God had a specific plan for Ishmael's life.
I was the innocent victim. I was saddled with surrogate motherhood, mistreated, and abandoned for bringing a son into the world. Ishmael was all I had. Despite his wild tendencies, I loved him and found a suitable wife for Ishmael. I did not view my son as others did.
Lord, I wish I knew what to do. There are many emotions running in and out of me, and I am looking for an escape route. Will You show me the path to follow? In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
All scripture references are from the NIV unless otherwise noted.