2014-06-23 - What Would Mahalath Say?
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. (Psalm 147:3)
Esau did not marry me totally for love. Esau knew that His dad told younger brother Jacob not to marry a Canaanite woman. Jacob obeyed. Esau wanted to also please his parents, and that is why he came looking for me.
Competing with his younger brother was a constant theme in Esau's life. Ironically, my own father, Ishmael, also suffered from family rejection. His own father abandoned him for a younger sibling. It is sad what this feeling of inferiority can do to a man, even a strong man.
Perhaps that is why Esau was drawn to me, as I was familiar with the pain which comes from neglect. Not the type of romance a girl dreams of, but Esau needed me.
Lord, It seems that every syllable, step, and action tied to my emotions, leave me sad and depressed. It is all-consuming and affects all aspects of life. I am in a race between a broken spirit and a Godly one, with You trailing behind. I recognize the hold it has on me, and ask that I may embrace Your love, my Heavenly Father. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
All scripture references are from the NIV unless otherwise noted.