2014-02-17 - What Would Benjamin Say?
God remembered Rachel; he listened to her and enabled her to conceive. She became pregnant and gave birth to a son and said, God has taken away my disgrace. She named him Joseph, and said, May the Lord add to me another son. (Genesis 30:22-24 NIV)
I never knew my mother, Rachel. She died the day I was born. It was her desire to have children and be a mother. She and Jacob, my father, had four sons - Joseph and me, and two others by a surrogate named Bilhah.
My birth was difficult. The last words Rachel breathed were my name, Ben-Oni, which means son of my suffering. I am thankful my father changed the name to Benjamin, meaning son of the right hand. No one would want to go through life being reminded of the sorrow he brought. In my case, it wasnt my fault.
Who knows how life would have been, having my mother alive, around to raise me? It would of course been different, for all of us. I didnt dwell on this fact too much. What good would it do? Life had its devastating points and joyous ones. I knew my father loved me, and knew I was wanted, without question. I took after my father and had a large family of my own, ten sons.
Lord, Its hard to accept when unfair things happen. I want justice to prevail! Please give me peace, knowing that You are in control and You God are watching over us, protecting us. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.