2013-03-29 - Back Again
So I've been away for a month now; it seems like just yesterday at times and other times it has seemed like months. I began writing devotionals about twelve to thirteen years ago. I had been called to preach. I was young and excited. I felt inspired to preach on a lot of things so I wrote a lot of ideas down and saved them for the next opportunity to preach. But those opportunities didn't seem to come as often as the ideas so I started writing them out as devotionals. I snuck them into the back pages of bulletins of my church and I started a little group called Adam's Insights. I look back at those days and while inspired with ideas, I lacked the ability to write well but the passion to share thoughts of God drove me to share anyway I could.
A month ago, I decided to take time off to rekindle my passion for pursuing God. In my mind, I envisioned using the time for some deep reflective prayer and Bible study. But the craziness of life nibbled at minutes and gobbled hours and days so none of that happened. And yet withdrawing from writing made me realize how much I missed it. Ideas begin to flow again. Even with weekly opportunities to share messages as a youth pastor I still had more ideas flow than I could use so I scribbled things down. God was drawing me back in slowly but steadily.
God reminded me why I first fell in love with the idea of writing. And with that he also reminded me of why I love him. Writing isn't natural for me. It has always been a struggle but that struggle with thinking through how best to articulate an idea forces me to think more deeply but more importantly it forces me to rely on him and not myself. God uses my weaknesses and struggles to show his strength. God is so good; he is so good to me.
1 Corinthians 1:27-31 NASB
All scripture references from KJV unless otherwise noted