[CF Devotionals] 2012-11-26 - What Would Reuben Say?

Leah became pregnant and gave birth to a son. She named him Reuben, for she said, “It is because the LORD has seen my misery. Surely my husband will love me now.” Genesis 29:32, 35:21, 49:1-4

As Jacob’s eldest, he spoke to me first while on his deathbed. He recalled my younger days of strength, but none of that matters, due to my being with his wife Bilhah. My dad doesn’t hold me in high esteem now. In fact, I felt demoted by him. Dad didn’t think I should have any dignity. He said I betrayed him with Bilhah. Sorry he felt that way.

So, in Jacob’s eyes, one discretion can change everything? I didn’t need his blessing. That’s what I told myself, anyway. If I could change the past and get back on my dad’s good side, I would. There is nothing I can do but apologize, but I didn’t do that. Even if I did offer an apology, my father would know it was not real. Parents have a way of figuring us kids’ motives out, somehow.

Lord, This is not what I envisioned for my life. There are times I wish I could do things over and mend some mistakes. When I confessed my sins to You, I was no longer condemned. Thank You that I can move on in Your peace. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.

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