2009-11-23 - Sad on the Inside
Last year I wrote a devotional about my grandmother. She passed away due to cancer a few days ago. During the last week of her life, she was in considerable pain. One day she was playing bingo; the next, a nurse was putting the telephone up to her ear, as she had no strength to pick up the telephone.
I am so grateful her sickness has ended. I do not believe it has sunk in, that I will not talk to her again, or get a cheerful note from her in the mail.
I have asked myself why I am not more sad or tearful. I am sad on the inside. Does that count?
Do I have peace because I know she is no longer suffering? Perhaps it is an unexplainable peace that comes from putting one's faith in the Lord. Perhaps like other questions in life, they will go unanswered. I may never understand why my grandmother had to experience such excruciating pain.
God's Word provides comfort. "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under Heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance," (Ephesians 3:1-4 NIV)
Lord, As Ephesians 2:14 tells us, You are our peace. There are many things I do not understand. The loss of a loved one is a sad and tragic experience to go through. Help us to endure the sadness, and to always focus on the happy memories. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.