2009-01-26 - Light vs. Dark
"When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." (John 8:12 NIV)
How can Jesus be the light, when I've been in the dark so long? Hasn't He seen me there, asking, and then begging, for a way out? I need an answer, or at least a map. I function better with structure. There is no structure when it comes to blackness. I do not move fast enough, so I am stuck where I have always been, in the dark.
How did I get in this mess? I don't know which way to go. I am too busy trying to figure things out, hoping God will reveal the secret - because my way does not always make sense. It is so dark and opaque, and I keep bumping into things. It is in these times of uncertainty, when I need to take God's words to heart. Even If I had the Word now, how could I read it? There are so many things in front of me begging for attention. Where do I start?
I don't know which way to walk, never mind when and where to take the first step. It seems whenever I get into a pickle, I turn to God, get some insight, the problem gets fixed, and I go on my merry way. Too bad that it has to get unbearable for me to turn to God. I want to change this pattern. I don't have to wait until some horrendous circumstance; I can start reading His Word while things are orderly and stable, like a custom-made insurance policy. At least traveling with God, the living light will make this path brighter. My only hope is a connection, communication with God.
Lord, Here I am again. Same me, same questions looking for a different solution. Please answer when I call Your name. My friends and I don't want to be on this dark road anymore. I decide to follow You today, knowing You'll make the path clear ahead. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
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