2007-03-03 - Not Meant To Be
I applied for a writer position at a reputable ministry. The new job would be a big adjustment, moving further away from family and friends to a large metropolitan city. The draw of working in a Christian environment was more enticing than the reality of moving and starting over from scratch.
I mailed in my application, and a few weeks later, I received a message from a ministry representative to set up a phone interview. On the application, there was a section that asked if there were any issues the ministry needed to know about.
I left that part blank, but the ministry's human resources employee asked the question during the phone interview. So I decided to be upfront and tell her about my weight problem. She asked how much weight I had to lose. I felt transported back to gym class, with the fit instructor sizing you up. I told the interviewee the number, and immediately there was silence on the line, as she wrote the amount down. Somehow I didn't feel right, telling this stranger about my personal life.
The woman told me about the ministry's dress code and other regulations that I would need to be disciplined to. Toward the end of the interview, I was asked what my salary requirements would be. I didn't think my response was too extravagant. After the interview, I felt this distaste in my mouth, like the ministry wanted a super-Christian. Soon I remembered that "all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus." (Romans 3:23-24 NIV)
I never heard back about the job, and I will never know if the reason was due to finances or my appearance or both. It took awhile, but soon I felt peace about not getting the job. It just wasn't God's will for me. "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 NIV)
Lord, I ask that You show me what step I am to take next. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.