2006-12-12 - Life Storm
OK God - my back has been hurting for nearly a year now. Some nights I can barely sleep. I've done well to get four or five hours of sleep each night for many weeks. I've taken pay cuts in my take home pay for two years now and stayed with the company I believe you led me to. For months at work, I've felt strung along by the promise of a new position with more money that never comes while having to do the work of two people. Now God you let my dad have not just one stroke but three; my dad is paralyzed on one side of his body. And now - now my son is down with a flu bug. What is up with that? What else will you let happen God. Why am I here? Do you care? Are you even listening?
Yes, God I know you are. You are the creator of the heavens and the earth. What the heck am I bellyaching about? This isn't my home and whatever happens will only be for a season. I know you are in control but there are times when I feel that you're not - but that is mostly just when I know I'm not in control. God I gave you my life. Help me to act as if it's your life and to trust you with it. I love you and know whatever you allow to happen will be used for the greater good. Help me to endure each of this life's trials. You are great and mighty. You are my refuge. I shall praise you in this storm so that whatever may come those who know me will know that you are still on the throne.
"Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised." (Job 1:21)
You are Jehovah-Jireh - my provider. You are Jehovah-Shalom - the God of my peace. You are Jehovah-Tzideknu - the Lord my righteousness. May your name be praised.
Amen - so be it!
Psalm 42 As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God. 2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God? 3 My tears have been my food day and night, while men say to me all day long, "Where is your God?" 4 These things I remember as I pour out my soul: how I used to go with the multitude, leading the procession to the house of God, with shouts of joy and thanksgiving among the festive throng. 5 Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and 6 my God. My soul is downcast within me; therefore I will remember you from the land of the Jordan, the heights of Hermon-from Mount Mizar. 7 Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me. 8 By day the LORD directs his love, at night his song is with me- a prayer to the God of my life. 9 I say to God my Rock, "Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy?" 10 My bones suffer mortal agony as my foes taunt me, saying to me all day long, "Where is your God?" 11 Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
All scripture references from KJV unless otherwise noted