2006-09-12 - Put Your Feelings in Their Place
Those who are patient have great understanding, but the quick-tempered display folly. A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones. (Proverbs 14:29-30 TNIV)
Feelings consume me. No matter how hard I try to stop and think about something else, I am in a constant battle with my emotions. They plead to take control of me. I know God is protecting me, even though it seems He's deserted me. But I will not believe the lie of His abandonment, for Jesus said "surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." (Matthew 28:20 NIV)
People all around are turning and pointing into different directions - but which one is right for me? There! High above in the distance, I see the answer - it's buried beneath the clouds, but I know restoration is there. Regardless of what others might say. My confidence returns slightly, enough to await the rain. Its downpour relieves the troubled Earth, while I remain unharmed and completely dry.
I lift my head and quickly smile, to thank my Savior above for the new life and meaningful existence He granted me. "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation." (2 Corinthians 5:17-18)
I am on the road to recovery. I don't have to be controlled by what I think or what others say. God chose to be my guide, so the least I can do is adjust my footsteps into His.
I don't want to camouflage my tears anymore. I want you to show me how to keep me instead of my emotions in control. How I long for my existence to be wrapped in ribbons around you, my Lord.