2002-08-22 - Can't Live a Day
Ps 62:5-8 My soul, wait in silence for God only, For my hope is from Him. 6 He only is my rock and my salvation, My stronghold; I shall not be shaken. 7 On God my salvation and my glory rest; The rock of my strength, my refuge is in God. 8 Trust in Him at all times, O people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. Selah. (NAS)
I have felt my need and my inadequacy very deeply of late. The pressures of various things in my life are taking a toll on my resources. There are times when a 24 hour day just seems like a single tick of the clock with no time to accomplish anything. It is a very frustrating time in many ways. It's almost like I can't get out of my own way to get things rolling.
Amid all the demands and disappointments I know that God is in control. It helps to curb the sad and frustrating moments to know that this is all for my good. Trials build patience, building character, building faith. In none of these issues, as personally painful or aggravating as they may be, does my heart close the door on God. I have been to the point where I questioned my faith in the Lord, but it was a dead end.
"He only is my rock and my salvation..." Even in times of correction, Jesus has only ever shown me compassion and concern for my well-being. He has been my strong shelter in the pain of losing a very dear friend, and my protector in times when there was nothing I could do to shield myself. He has given me assurance of my salvation and blessed me with abilities that have blessed me and yet I can not take credit. They are His and for His glory.
"Pour out your heart before Him;" He wants to share our joys and wants us to come to Him with our broken, shattered hearts. He wants to be the One we trust in when the chips are down. He sends people into our lives to help too - absolutely. But we should recognize the source of that help too and thank both the person who came and the Lord Who sent the assistance. Never feel like you can't take one more thing to Jesus or He'll turn you away. The Master knows our hearts. He knows that our frames are made of the dust of the ground and how very frail we are. When we learn our fragility, it is a big step in learning to depend on the source of our strength and our strong tower. When we quit trying to run the race in our own strength, we will turn around to find open arms to hold us up.
But I couldn't face my life tomorrow without Your hope in my heart,
Lord Jesus - give us the wisdom to bring our joys and our pains to You. Help us to see Your hand moving the pieces around in our lives. Give us patience so that You can develop character and faith in us. Amen.
Grace & Peace,