2001-06-09 - Tough to Deal With Situations
Over the last few weeks, several pretty "tough to deal with" type of situations have happened in our house. Teenagers are an interesting bunch.
After one episode, Rick said "you are supposed to learn something from all this." It was one of those moments when you wish you had duct tape nearby.
Learn something? Nope, I was going crazy...right over the edge. You know, those times when hysteria seems like the most viable option.
Your brain no longer wants to address any thoughts requiring intelligent reason...you need a period of "time out" I call "a no-brainer."
All my life I have been a "fixer." If there is a problem, my immediate response is to fix it. Now I was in a place where someone was making decisions I had absolutely no control over. I could beg, plead, whatever and he was going to do what he wanted regardless; he wanted to "make his own mistakes."
After I regained some sanity and cooled off enough to think, I prayed and asked God what it is He wanted to show me. Nothing seemed to come in the way of an answer until a friend e-mailed me about something unrelated and as I responded, I realized God was showing me something. Trust has never been an easy thing for me. I even have a hard time trusting God, especially when it comes to my kids. That probably sounds weird since they are really His kids, but it has been a real struggle for me.
I am beginning to see that I really don't know much at all. I think I ask the wrong questions many times and often wouldn't see the answer if it were staring me in the face. The Lord is showing me that my perspective has been so limited and often so wrong.
I am so glad He is so much bigger than I am, so much stronger and so very, very faithful.
Proverbs 19:21 Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD'S purpose that prevails.
In His Service,